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Bad Weekend-Let's have a pity party.
Apr. 19th, 2009 05:39 pmI am exhausted, physically and mentally. USDAA trial this past weekend.
Panic did horrible, the worst he's ever done at trials, class or home combined. I left almost every run feeling utterly frustrated, then just sat down and bawled. I know it isn't his fault, it's all me even though I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I didn't expect him to be exceptional at all; I just wanted him to improve on, or even be at the same level, he was at last trial. He was no where NEAR that level, or even how he did at his very first trial. It's like he regressed completely. I almost felt embarrassed to be out there. If I was watching me run I would be thinking that I probably shouldn't be showing him yet. I tried getting him pretty tired before every run so he wouldn't be off the wall, and then keeping him calm and focused on me before his runs, but it's as though as soon as he gets in the ring a switch goes off in his brain and he can't control himself.
I don't think I can chalk it up to just lack of experience. He was truly out of control. He is SO much dog and I feel like I am so little of a person. I know he can be (and is) completely brilliant. I just have no idea how to get him there. I'm at a complete loss right now. All I feel like I can do about it right now is cry. I love Panic so much and just want him to meet the potential I know he has.
Throughout all this Panic managed a 2nd in jumpers and a 3rd in pairs. They feels like a very hollow, meaningless placements though.
Let's get out of this self-pitying fest. Toby on the other hand had an excellent weekend. He stayed completely focused and didn't react to any dogs all weekend. He Q'd in Standard and Pairs with 2nd and 3rd place respectively. He ran pairs with Panic, a gigantic accomplishment considering our history. That was definitely his best run (and, ironically, Panic's absolute worst. With only 9 obstacles. @_@)
Maxie also did well. She's such a cutie. She ran in gamblers and jumpers. No Qs, but second in jumpers. I wasn't going to try the gamble with her (she just don't do distance) but it was a good "let's just run around and do stuff!" run. Her jumpers was awesome, but she was a few seconds over time due to a detour to the side of the ring to say hi to my mom! She was really gunning it though and I was super proud! I think I've finally figured out what makes her tick. And she's only 10 XD. Running her was the only thing that got me through the weekend; she's so much fun.
Here's some photos I took over the weekend in the Starters Standard class.
Toby on the table!
Panic did horrible, the worst he's ever done at trials, class or home combined. I left almost every run feeling utterly frustrated, then just sat down and bawled. I know it isn't his fault, it's all me even though I don't know what I'm doing wrong.
I didn't expect him to be exceptional at all; I just wanted him to improve on, or even be at the same level, he was at last trial. He was no where NEAR that level, or even how he did at his very first trial. It's like he regressed completely. I almost felt embarrassed to be out there. If I was watching me run I would be thinking that I probably shouldn't be showing him yet. I tried getting him pretty tired before every run so he wouldn't be off the wall, and then keeping him calm and focused on me before his runs, but it's as though as soon as he gets in the ring a switch goes off in his brain and he can't control himself.
I don't think I can chalk it up to just lack of experience. He was truly out of control. He is SO much dog and I feel like I am so little of a person. I know he can be (and is) completely brilliant. I just have no idea how to get him there. I'm at a complete loss right now. All I feel like I can do about it right now is cry. I love Panic so much and just want him to meet the potential I know he has.
Throughout all this Panic managed a 2nd in jumpers and a 3rd in pairs. They feels like a very hollow, meaningless placements though.
Let's get out of this self-pitying fest. Toby on the other hand had an excellent weekend. He stayed completely focused and didn't react to any dogs all weekend. He Q'd in Standard and Pairs with 2nd and 3rd place respectively. He ran pairs with Panic, a gigantic accomplishment considering our history. That was definitely his best run (and, ironically, Panic's absolute worst. With only 9 obstacles. @_@)
Maxie also did well. She's such a cutie. She ran in gamblers and jumpers. No Qs, but second in jumpers. I wasn't going to try the gamble with her (she just don't do distance) but it was a good "let's just run around and do stuff!" run. Her jumpers was awesome, but she was a few seconds over time due to a detour to the side of the ring to say hi to my mom! She was really gunning it though and I was super proud! I think I've finally figured out what makes her tick. And she's only 10 XD. Running her was the only thing that got me through the weekend; she's so much fun.
Here's some photos I took over the weekend in the Starters Standard class.
Toby on the table!