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Apr. 7th, 2012 12:29 amThis is a really boring post that probably doesn't make a lot of sense. Just some things that have been spinning around in my head. I'll try to keep it interesting by inserting random and unrelated pictures of my dogs.
Sometimes I think about why I want to be successful in (among other things) agility. Of course there is a huge competitive part of me that pushes me to be the best. There is such a thrill to try to push yourself to higher levels. But there is another huge part of me that wants to achieve success so that I can have an impact on other people. Basically this translates to the fact that I want to feel as though I have knowledge to pass on to others. I want to help others achieve success. I want to teach. It is one of my greatest joys in life to feel as though I have made a positive impact (however small) on other people. I think that could be interpreted as a desire for attention. Maybe in some respects it is. But this is a bit odd for me because I don't particularly like getting a lot of attention. I have this weird duality between being a person that tends to shrink into the background of things (quite happily) and being a person that, as mentioned, loves teaching and inspiring and captivating people. I don't consider myself a shy person, but I am generally quiet and unassuming. I lay low in most social situations I am in. I'm perfectly fine being around a ton of people and not saying a word, just enjoying the company of others without feeling like a huge part of the acton. Nope, I am not the life of the party.
I was teaching agility for awhile. For a lot of reasons including an overall lack of time, I'm not teaching agility right now (I am teaching gymnastics still!) but a big reason is me questioning whether or not I have any grounds to teach at all. Do I actually have knowledge that could benefit others? And if I do, do I actually have the ability to effectively pass on that knowledge? I love teaching when I feel confident about what I'm teaching, but confidence is something that I often lack.
I don't really know what the point of the this is or if it even has a point. What I am pretty confident about is the fact that I am going to be a teacher. Like, a school teacher. This is a feeling I've had for a long time but don't think about too often. I don't particularly need to focus on that aspect of my life currently; I'll get there when I get there. I just feel, fundamentally, that teaching is what I should do. Its that impact you can have on a person's life, knowing you've played a part in helping someone reach their own success, is something amazing. So many teachers have had such a huge impact on who I am as a person. They are people that I will never in my life forget. They are amazing, inspiring, intelligent, and deeply caring people. I'm really not sure I could ever be that person, but I would really really like to try.
Sometimes I think about why I want to be successful in (among other things) agility. Of course there is a huge competitive part of me that pushes me to be the best. There is such a thrill to try to push yourself to higher levels. But there is another huge part of me that wants to achieve success so that I can have an impact on other people. Basically this translates to the fact that I want to feel as though I have knowledge to pass on to others. I want to help others achieve success. I want to teach. It is one of my greatest joys in life to feel as though I have made a positive impact (however small) on other people. I think that could be interpreted as a desire for attention. Maybe in some respects it is. But this is a bit odd for me because I don't particularly like getting a lot of attention. I have this weird duality between being a person that tends to shrink into the background of things (quite happily) and being a person that, as mentioned, loves teaching and inspiring and captivating people. I don't consider myself a shy person, but I am generally quiet and unassuming. I lay low in most social situations I am in. I'm perfectly fine being around a ton of people and not saying a word, just enjoying the company of others without feeling like a huge part of the acton. Nope, I am not the life of the party.
I was teaching agility for awhile. For a lot of reasons including an overall lack of time, I'm not teaching agility right now (I am teaching gymnastics still!) but a big reason is me questioning whether or not I have any grounds to teach at all. Do I actually have knowledge that could benefit others? And if I do, do I actually have the ability to effectively pass on that knowledge? I love teaching when I feel confident about what I'm teaching, but confidence is something that I often lack.
I don't really know what the point of the this is or if it even has a point. What I am pretty confident about is the fact that I am going to be a teacher. Like, a school teacher. This is a feeling I've had for a long time but don't think about too often. I don't particularly need to focus on that aspect of my life currently; I'll get there when I get there. I just feel, fundamentally, that teaching is what I should do. Its that impact you can have on a person's life, knowing you've played a part in helping someone reach their own success, is something amazing. So many teachers have had such a huge impact on who I am as a person. They are people that I will never in my life forget. They are amazing, inspiring, intelligent, and deeply caring people. I'm really not sure I could ever be that person, but I would really really like to try.