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We went on a trip. A long, long trip.
For a lot of reasons I can't really articulate, this is a big deal for me. In the few days leading up to this trip I decided I didn't want to go. This is something that has plagued me for most of my life. Although I signed up for many as a child, I've never been to a summer camp because I always decided the day-of that I didn't want to go.
Ok, so let me take that back. I can articulate why this trip was a big deal for me. I'm scared to death of change. I love being home. I love being in my little bubble. Give me a routine and let me at it for the rest of my life, please. The past few years I've been trying to change that, and this was the big one. I've never been west. I've never been on a long trip. I didn't want to go when it came down to the wire, but I told myself to suck it up and jump in.
I backpacked and rock-climbed. I put my feet in the Pacific Ocean. I saw seals in the wild, I craned my neck to see the top of redwood trees (impossible), I hiked, I laughed, I ate, I drove and drove and drove...and most importantly, I spent time in the company of people that I would swear I've known my entire life. I jumped, and now, well, I don't want to stop jumping.
I excepted to take this trip and have a great time, to see amazing sites and hang out with cool people. But I never believed it could be as eye-opening and down-right life changing as it was. I haven't seen or accomplished a whole lot in my life, but taking this trip feels so profound to me. I am especially grateful that I got to share this trip with the two most important guys in my life, even if we are really bad at taking family photos.
All I can say is thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone I had the privilege of spending time with. I can believe how big and kind the world can be.
I have so much more to say, but it will have to wait.
Boulder, Middle of nowhere Colorado, Dinosaur National Monument, Salt Lake City, Sacramento, San Francisco, Berkeley, Lots and Lots of Coast, Redwoods, Grants Pass, Portland, Seattle, Spokane, Missoula, Chicago, Home.
And breath.
For a lot of reasons I can't really articulate, this is a big deal for me. In the few days leading up to this trip I decided I didn't want to go. This is something that has plagued me for most of my life. Although I signed up for many as a child, I've never been to a summer camp because I always decided the day-of that I didn't want to go.
Ok, so let me take that back. I can articulate why this trip was a big deal for me. I'm scared to death of change. I love being home. I love being in my little bubble. Give me a routine and let me at it for the rest of my life, please. The past few years I've been trying to change that, and this was the big one. I've never been west. I've never been on a long trip. I didn't want to go when it came down to the wire, but I told myself to suck it up and jump in.
I backpacked and rock-climbed. I put my feet in the Pacific Ocean. I saw seals in the wild, I craned my neck to see the top of redwood trees (impossible), I hiked, I laughed, I ate, I drove and drove and drove...and most importantly, I spent time in the company of people that I would swear I've known my entire life. I jumped, and now, well, I don't want to stop jumping.
I excepted to take this trip and have a great time, to see amazing sites and hang out with cool people. But I never believed it could be as eye-opening and down-right life changing as it was. I haven't seen or accomplished a whole lot in my life, but taking this trip feels so profound to me. I am especially grateful that I got to share this trip with the two most important guys in my life, even if we are really bad at taking family photos.
All I can say is thank you, thank you, thank you to everyone I had the privilege of spending time with. I can believe how big and kind the world can be.
I have so much more to say, but it will have to wait.