Its a scary new world

[aardogs]

I currently feel like I'm not really where I belong, like I'm in a weird bubble in-limbo between worlds. I started college classes on Monday, and although I was excited about going and really enjoyed orientation and other events leading up to class, now that I'm there I don't quite feel like I belong. I know things will get better--I'm not even through the first week yet--but I didn't really realize how connected I felt to my high school until I started college. I was very involved in school and very close to my teachers, most of whom I had every year that I was there. It is difficult for me to feel like I really belong places, so leaving all of that comfort and familiarity behind is going to be incredibly hard for me. I was excited, but now I'm not quite sure I want to be a part of this adult world. Because of how busy I was the week leading up to starting school, I didn't really have time to think and prepare for it and feel like I was just kind of thrust into this world very suddenly. I want the rigid structure and predictable schedule of high school back...well I guess I really DON'T, but right now it sounds so nice.

If you can't tell from this and past posts, I'm a person whose world is very easily rocked. Little things get to me all the time, and bigger things crush me. I'm so glad I decided to stay home for college though. I can't imagne being without the comforts of my dogs and house and my home town. And Smoosh of course.




My aunt and uncle gave Smoosh a cat tower, which he really enjoys hanging out in. Or out of. He always either lays like this or on his back with his feet hanging out. Why can't I be this carefree? Instead I'm stuck a constant worrier.

Comments

[purpledogs.livejournal.com]

It's tough, being thrown into the adult world so suddenly. A year later, sometimes I love it and think it's great... but sometimes it still terrifies me. Keep crying, keep taking it all in and letting it all out. You'll find your niche there too.

Glad you have Smoosh and your dogs. And I love that picture!